Its ok....to be, not ok……

Oh, God please …..
In the last few days, I’ve visited so many blogs that I can’t believe myself. I saw poetry blogs, informative blogs, image blogs, designs blogs, personal blogs and so many different blogs that,now I can confidently say, I’m addicted. But one thing I noticed and I must admit, every blog is unique in its own way, every one have their own style of writing, expressing themselves and that people can be ridiculously creative and entertaining. In one word AWESOME!
So, hats off to all the bloggers who have been blogging for ‘something’ and ‘nothing’.
You must be thinking that I’m gonna dedicate this post to all the bloggers in the world including me, but, no. B’coz its not necessary!!! We are great, guys.
Actually the purpose of writing this post is something else, like we all know, every day is not a grate day, similarly yesterday was not so nice day for me, I was irritated,tired, exhausted and all the synonyms of these words.


I really had a bad day, so bad that while returning from office, I was silently cursing everything that I could catch hold of. How difficult life is, how much traffic, why cant I change my blog header, why the hell are people self obsessed,etc etc .When I was about half km away from my home, there’s a junction point and I saw this tall guy, see the following pic.
Lets say the pink dot is me and the black one is the tall guy(who was walking in his sleep), I was about to take the straight road ahead of me and the same was evident for him also. I am cleaver enough to forecast that we were definitely going to meet at the same point and suddenly all my frustrations started accumulating, what does the world thinks of itself? ‘these men, they are only responsible for everything, the polluting, corruption…..and… and everything. Looking at the guy from the corner of my eyes, I thought, what do they think, we would silently surrender to all this, NO, NEVER. So…….so, I would never, ever let him cross ahead of me, I promised to myself. I started walking faster but with ease. I was 99.9% sure that we would meet at one point and then I will take my revenge, I wont let him cross me, he have to make way for me FIRST (the poor guy was not even aware of my presence, forget about my devil thoughts).
We walked, step after step, with each step a little closer to my set destination. ( me aware & he unaware), and suddenly I was there, O’shit…..shit, my calculation had gone wrong, what the hell ……how could I …… how could I….o no, how could I forgot the fact that he is a TALL guy and his steps are obvious to be longer than mine, I should have walked a bit faster………..
Shit, shit, SHIT……
Want to know what happened next?
We almost hit each other, just saved by a second. The guy almost fell down, walking with full gear when he saw me in front of him………(God knows what he was thinking), he reacted as if he has seen a ghost, he immediately applied the self brake(may be his sub-conscious mind reminded him of me being a girl) and as a result of his brake, his sandals actually, made a sound like zrreeekkkkk. I (so smart) took the benefit of that 1 sec and crossed him, I could sense that he was looking at me, even though I wanted to do the same (how badly I wanted to see his expression) but I did not, instead I pulled my chin up and walked straight like a princess, as if nothing has happened (with all the pride on my success).
Well, I felt as if I’ve made the entire female kingdom proud!!!

The chapter’s closed, but, when ever I think of the zrreeekkkkk sound I cannot stop laughing at myself and the not so poor guy.
Well sometimes its ok, to not be ok……



With Love.

Why a career....

I believe that, every creation has a purpose to accomplish within this small span of time allotted to us.
There’s a war going on inside me to know, ‘my purpose of life’, before that I want to know, what exactly I ‘want’. Because it will ultimately take me to the final avenue and then to the destination.
Belonging to a conservative family, I’m lucky enough to have very supportive brothers & sister, but, my parents and the society (upto some extent) holds me from exploring myself fully.
And yes, the support that I enjoy also comes with, if….but…then….
There are a hell lot of things bothering me, and I’ll jot them down in my upcoming posts.

The rampant one is, Career vs Livelihood?

How badly, we have confused livelihood with career and by doing so we are not only desolating our present but also the many future generations ahead of us.
We earn money to live or we live to earn money???
It’s quite visible what we are doing.

We are gifted with a life, good or bad, smooth or harsh, blessed or cursed, but the fact is, we have it, and it depends on us how we are going to live it.

The fact that I’m sitting here, writing all this is due to the pressure, pressure of expectations,
Funny ha!!!
My father being a central government service holder thinks that a god job (grate if Govt.) and material possession (as much as possible), makes a life complete or secure or whatever. He has a valid point, he has worked really hard to be where he is. But then it was his odyssey, it can’t be mine or everyone’s. And not to forget, even the society is not going to give approval to your existence until and unless you prove yourself, that too according to their understanding…….
I’m sure every individual must have been through this, in some point of their life. Some accept it and run with the crowd, some enjoy it while others break it and find their own paths.
As far as I’m concerned, I want to LIVE.

Wake up every morning to the sunrise, lots of hard work and living with the nature through out the day, evenings would bring with it the mysteries of the universe and a peaceful night knowing that the stars are watching you all night.

I know its not so easy, but then, who wants it to be easy???

God has already created enough challenges, what’s the need to create more?
Moreover, career is not a way of living. It’s a rat race. You compete with others instead of yourself. There are times when you may feel happy but never content, you are not recognized for what you are but by your designation, possessions, achievements, recognitions, etc etc etc. You envy others for no reasons and have to keep wearing a mask, hiding not only from them but also ourselves. A career demands a certain quality from us and performing a similar kind of work for 30 yrs we never explore ourselves fully and brutally suppress the many other gifts of God, we devote our time to an artificial environment not realizing its effect and most of all ‘time’ & our family to whom we are responsible for……..the list can go onnnnnnnn.

I just did a little calculation, on this ‘time fact’ and the result is-
One day :24 hrs
We sleep for: 8-9 hrs (minimum)
Work for :8-9 hr (minimum)
Before & after office works:3 hrs (minimum)
Refreshment (Reading news paper, friends, T.V etc): 1 hr (minimum)
Total:21 hr
So left 3 hrs (maximum), it depends how you spend these 3hrs, quality time with family or with yourself, solving family issues, making budget plan, shopping, partying ……….
Let’s add the weekends, total comes to: 3+12=15hrs
In one week time left with us is 15 hrs,
One month: 60hrs =2.5 days
One year: 30 days (maximum)
30 yrs (working period): 900 days = 2 yrs 5 months & 20 days, lets say 3 yrs!!!
Utmost, only for Central govt staff. Forget software engineers, business men, managers etc.
Then after a certain age, our so called secure jobs or high yielding business bids us farewell and we shamelessly, return to the people with whom we have spent this good amount of time expecting what?
The problem is not what we are doing with our lives, its our life & our decision, but who gave us the right to play with the lives of the future generations, with the environment, with other members who are sharing this earth with us?
And what for ……….?

It’s getting lengthier & lengthier and I still can go on, but then I'll get lost........

So collecting back myself, the only thing I wish, is to build life around me, for myself and others.
Wish me luck & lots of Love!!!

Easy to Miss

WE all love stories,no matter which age group we belong to, and I'm so much fond of stories that i've a separate blog for my favorite ones. Recently, i was reminded of a beautiful story which i'm going to post here because its something more than just a story and i want to share it with everyone.

The story -
Once upon a time there lived an orphan boy. He was all alone and had no place to go. But there was one thing his parents left for him, a calf. He walked from one village to the other in search of food and shelter. Sometimes he had to cross rivers in order to reach the other village. And whenever he would come across a river, he would carry the calf on his shoulders. Years passed and the boy grew up to become a young man. One day while crossing the river, some villagers saw him and laughed at him. The boy, unable to understand looked at them and a voice shouted from the crowd, "what a big fool, carrying that cow on his shoulder"!

The boy looked at the calf & realized that the calf he was carrying all these years, is no more a calf, but had become a beautiful cow.

Moral of the story- "With practice impossible becomes possible".

When my brother reminded us (me & my little brother) of this story, he said, how sad it is, people could see his practice but couldn't see his love? Why would anyone carry a calf or any other animal all these years, all the way??? How deeply the boy must have been attached to the animal.It was not practice but his love which gave him the strength.

So true!!!

Would I or you will ever carry 'anything' on our shoulder and not feel the pain? or would we do it for the sake of 'practice'?

No, for sure. I wish, we could see beyond the limits of our eyes and may be then we will be able to see the inner beauty of every person, of every object and even of the tiniest creation on this earth & understand their true essence.

With Love!

Tomorrow is Rakshabandhan

Yes tomorrow is Rakshabandhan or Rakhipurnima and I won't get a holiday.Its the day when sisters tie rakhi in the wrist of their brothers,its a way of expressing your love towards them. And yes we get gifts too.
My little brother has been giving me the same gift since last many years and I love it, a hug!
Even though I don't wait for any occasion to express my love but not getting a holiday is not very pleasing. I'm sure many working people must be feeling the same.
Actually it the festive flavor which is makes the whole environment lazy nothing else.
During school days, we use to get so many holidays like Ganesh Puja, Swaraswati Puja, Dushera, Diwali, Holi, Christmas Holidays, Summer vacations and many more.
I guess its one of the disadvantages of being grown-ups!!!

Love to all!!