Friday, July 24, 2009

A little Prayer




Oh God,

I don’t ask for Fancy Food, Home made Food will do.

I don’t ask for Dunlop Beds, Hard Floor will do.

I don’t ask for Branded Clothes, Cotton dresses will do.

I don’t ask for Polished Roads, the Roads Not Taken will do.

I don’t ask for Amitab Bachan’s fan, Family’s Love will do.

I don’t ask to be Famous Five, my lovely Friends will do.

I don’t ask for a life of Dreams, a Simple Walk in life will do.

I don’t ask for a Magic Stick, instead my Hands you gave will do.

I don’t ask for all the Luxury, a Healthy Life instead will do.

I don’t ask for World Peace, a little Peace in every life will do.

I don’t ask for an Einstein’s brain, my Mother’s Heart will better do.

I don’t ask you to easy things for me, give me the courage that will do.

I Hope, I haven’t asked too much.

Only what you have designed for all!!!

I don't ask for a prefect ending , a rusty one will do...

Sunday, July 19, 2009

60+ No work Plz


A few days back while discussing about some work with my colleague who is 65 yrs old, suddenly my back ached and I realized that the seats which has been allotted to him was quite uncomfortable. Once the discussion was over I pulled a comfortable chair from the other room and passed it to him.
Days passed by and once again I witnessed the same emotions, expression on his face which I had witnessed with another colleague(68yrs old) in my previous job.

There's something that pinches me all the time, our education, social & political system promises us a peaceful old age after our life's hard work and dedication then how cum so many people above 60 & 70 years are either working or looking for job?

Is it out of choice?
Is it out of habit? or
Is it due to circumstances?

Whatever the reason is the after effect is something like this:-

1. You can see them sitting in one corner of the office away from everyone else,
2. They are never a part of the jolly happenings in the work place,
3. They are criticized for being slow with their work (obvious at their age),
4. People get irritated and sometimes make fun of them for their disabilities like hearing problem or lack of computer knowledge(which is again obvious)
5. If they have their own group then their discussion consist of their achievements or complains about the young generations irresponsible conduct which in return give way to a cold war.

All these are fine as it happens in close groups BUT the extreme happens when

6. A young boss humiliates an elderly person showing off the power of his position...........

Gosh, I wonder how they take it.

Because if it happens to me........
At work place everyone is judged primarily on the basis of performance (lets ignore the other things for now) and a little mistake..............
someone has said it right "Tong is the deadliest weapon."

May be I'm looking at the whole thing from a negative aspect. It definitely can be argued that they are independent, have a social life and most importantly they are not dependent on their kids.

But I'll still not agree because whenever I look into their eyes all I see is emptiness,going through the files, sipping the cup of coffee, walking from one end to the other in the office and their broken smiles.

The other reason is my grandfather, he is 102 yrs old. He spends his time looking after his animals and between his grand children. He is proud of being able to do all this without any help.
The last time I saw him he was literally talking to a calf, I was shocked and thought his old age has started affecting his brain but later on asking my cousin told me that's the way they live. Their love is not confined to human beings only. And here we go on building roads & buildings in the name of beeeeeepppp development.
Coming back to the point, he is a part of the family with people who understand him and no one criticizes him for his mistakes. Most importantly he is living HIS LIFE.

Which ever way we select, problems are unavoidable but the point is we have a choice, either live your own life or a life designed by others. After all I have this one life man.

I wish, we could spend more time LIVING & less time MAKING A LIVING!!!

Proud to be Oriya - The Ashen Life

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

What my Low Blood Pressure TAUGHT me



I hate it, I simply hate it. I hate following a set of rules made by someone else which I have to follew. Be it school, college, job or anything else-I dont know why but its just so.

Recently I quitted my job to follow my heart and take the risk of not having "My Money".

I joined back my Yoga classes & made all the plannings to keep myself busy in things 'I Love to do', even a thought of it brings a big smile on my face.

But....but I did not know that in the other end of all my plannings God was standing & smiling. There was this one thing I was not prepared for.

Within three days I got another job much better than my previous one and then
same old stuff:"Be Pratical", "Golden oppurtunity", "No work load", "Money" ,"Savings", "Utilize ur time", "just try it"...........

Its obvious others cannot understand the depth of your feelings until & unless you shout to the World and force them to either understand or accept you. I've seen many such "Majboor parents"

I started doing job just to get he feeling of being independent & earn my own pocket money, but soon I realized I was not happy! I changed from one job to another and ended up changing more than 5 jobs in 4 years :) Yes not to forget the breaks. Now at last when I decided ..........

This Crap was waiting

The decession was more difficult because I've made a single commitment(not possible to disclose)which I cannot break.

I was standing helplessly in between my dreams & my commitment.

At last, I took a decession.
The decession to go with my commitment and joined this new place.

A month has passed and today I'm on leave due to sudden discovery of low blood pressure & feaver.

This morning while discussing with my brother I regretted my decession and my Big Bro said you never know HIS (God) plans.

But at this point, writing down the whole thing I feel I've done the right thing-I simply feel it & it feels good.

Living for myself or my dreams would have brought me immense happiness or satisfraction but giving some years of your life or the whole life to a reason is what i expected from myself.

I dont know what His plan is but as it is said "Every event has a purpose and every setback its lesson".